One day

It's 2015 but I'm still trying to process 2014 and what I've been through.  I got let go at my job because the position was restructured and the other oppportunities offered to me where not a good fit.  Then I took the first job I was offered because it seemed decent, but ended up in a place where I was verbally abused each day by students who were annoyed that I was telling them they needed to be at a volume 0.  I came in hating my job and not making much of an effort.  I got berated my 3 different parents all of which made me cry, although only one was in front of me.  She wouldn't stop for an hour telling me about how her daughter has never been disrespectful so it must be...And no one was there to stop her.  I couldn't walk away because she crept into my soul and made me feel as though I should be ashamed.  I hated her for it.  I also didn't go into work the next day and really decided that just showing up was not enough, that I really had to start caring about these kids. 

Started planning better.  But I'm sitting here now without plans.  I have then in my head but I have trouble getting it down.  I can make particular worksheets but I have trouble seeing the big picture I think. 

I really had been wanting to work in the field of science for a while.  I really did always want to do that and I want to take that opportunity.  Maybe I will end up teaching again some day but I want to do science now. 

I'd like some place I can be really energetic and goofy and nerd out.  Seriously like on Bones.  I think I like watching Bones because I'd love to work with people like that, figuring stuff out together in a team.  Not crime solving though.

But every day I just take the dream that one day I will be at a better job.  I am doing much better than the times when I quit my job because I thought I'd be stuck there forever and the time I thought I was in hell because I would never be able to quit my job. 

One day is one day closer each day. 

Maybe I should be a... Gemini?

When it's time to look for a new job, I start thinking of easier alternatives.  Like porn star, exotic dancer, plus-size model, and so on.  My husband likes to say that is a trait of Geminis.  It's not true of course, but he has one other example, so it's hard to convince him that isn't true. 


I tried selling doggy shoes off the beach once, but most people told me they didn't have any money.  I need a job that allows me to have a more flexible schedule.  Oh, wait, there is that one magazine, is it StreetSmart?

I'm going to toddler soccer today.  It's organized by a church that believes I'm going to hell.  They don't tell Julian that, though; which is good, because otherwise he'd be very confused.

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